Lord you care for ME!

I do NOT normally cry.  I am touched by you, Lord, this morning and that is why I am moved to tears.

Dear God,

Thank you for showing me life's real blessings!

I see the daily messes, laundry undone, dishes to wash and I feel the stress of not staying on top of it all.  I see my children's weaknesses and feel troubled in my heart.  Will I be able to teach them all they need to know?  I see the day is almost over and we did not learn math!  Lord am I failing?  We are a one income family.  Lord how will this provide for our family?  Weddings?  College?  How will we even begin to build a savings.

Then Lord you show me you do care!  You touch our family in ways I never thought possible!

You sell our van.  Lord what am I to do without a vehicle!  I pray for a free vehicle.  I have doubts.  You will not possibly provide a free vehicle!!!  Within days my Uncle calls; "I have a car I am not using.  Would you like it?"  God how could you possibly be so good to me?  ME??? 

You speak words through my brother.  I tell no one but I am feeling as if I am doing no good as a Mom.  In fact I don't even tell you Lord but you know what I'm feeling so within days you help me.  Out of the blue my brother says "I want what you and Jason have.  Your home feels like home.  The kids are so different and happy. I want a stay at home wife."   Really Lord? I never knew anyone saw that.  I often times do not see it!!  Oh Lord you love me so much to speak to me!  I can not fathom how deep your love and concern is for me.

You send us on vacation!  With little money for vacation we were content staying home but you had other plans.  Our neighbors invited us on vacation with them.  Off to New York we went for a free trip in a lovely home by the waters.  Each morning the sun rose over the waters right outside the home we were staying at in New York.  Just amazing. God you are AMAZING!  You are amazing that you would put it on our neighbors hearts to invite us.  You are amazing, amazing and more amazing the more I get to know you!

With you Lord I am lacking nothing!  Times of 'need' are the times you show up in mighty ways.  How could I be of so little faith.  How could I really feel in need.  You have provided in so many ways.  I feel like a spoiled child at times - whining for WHAT?  Why do I complain in my heart so often?

I know I am blessed but sometimes I really don't feel it.  I sometimes feel I need more.  I sometimes think if only I had this or that.  Then Lord you so gently tell me YOU ARE PROVIDING in mighty ways and so gently open my eyes to your blessings....

Then I happen upon this website: http://www.aholyexperience.com/

Reading the Sept 14th post causes tears to run down my cheeks.  I am so fortunate!  I am blessed, Lord!  I have so much yet so much may be what is hindering me.

I am sorry that I am often blinded by the daily blessings you pour upon me!  YOU have given me an ABUNDANT life!  You alone are to be praised!

I thank you Lord for the messes.  I thank you Lord for little money so we can be provided for in BIG ways by you!  I thank you Lord that our carpet is dirty because our family is home so much making messes, enjoying the home you blessed us with.  I thank you Lord that the backyard is messy with paints.  You blessed my children with the enjoyment of painting in the sun yesterday!  I thank you Lord for the unfolded laundry.  You have blessed us with clothes overflowing!!!  Thank you Lord for the life you gave me and me alone.  I realize it's not like that of anyone else.  You have made me, me, and are directing me in ways that are right for the path you have planned for me.

Lord open my eyes to YOU!

Psalm 1:6a For the Lord watches over the path of the godly.

Lord I am blessed to know you are watching over my path.  I bow my head in thanksgiving to you alone!

Lord, you are my DELIGHT!!!

Love,
Dawn